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my worries right now
Apr. 26th, 2003 10:37 pmMy computer just claimed it as getting no power -- although it was still plugged in! Has the fraying power cord frayed too much? I feel more urgency for getting that replaced. But also I did just drop the boxy part of the cord (again). Is there impact-damage which could keep that from passing power thru? The box's green light was lit up, but the computer's power light was on red. oh no :-(
(The computer went thru with it and shut itself down for lack of power. I had to let it recharge an hour then try turning it on again. This isn't good. I should know why.)
I read over grant funding notifications on the NIH page Jill deVilliers told me about (I think they were the notifications and not appeals) and felt hope crumbling. I truly was foolish to pick a place before a job. =(
And you know what else, I don't want anything to do with SLI (specific language-impairment)! Speech Pathology, neither, but all the grants wee for normal-vs-SLI children it seemed. This may make sense from the N.I.H.. Where do I find companies? I want companies; I will program and work and it will be a job, and none more of this academia crap.
I wonder what Jess and Jason (anth major) are thinking of doing?
Oh, and I found Pustejovsky's grant on that page. ... It runs out this August. I didn't know. Reading that, I stated morosing that maybe this is why James never emailed me back despite his making noises of invitation before. Even so, though -- and it's probably not so -- I know this does NOT man it is a good (or even an ok) reason for me to not re-email him and ask again. Maybe he lost it/mis-deleted and forgot that I'd emailed him the other month. And even if he can't hire me, he can still give me ideas of who else could. That was what I made a point of asking him for in the email I sent. I suspect that he would know something useful about the Boston-area commercial linguistics possibilities at last! Ha! So writing Pustejovsky is good. I must do it. I know.
What I am so afraid of is being judged.
(The computer went thru with it and shut itself down for lack of power. I had to let it recharge an hour then try turning it on again. This isn't good. I should know why.)
I read over grant funding notifications on the NIH page Jill deVilliers told me about (I think they were the notifications and not appeals) and felt hope crumbling. I truly was foolish to pick a place before a job. =(
And you know what else, I don't want anything to do with SLI (specific language-impairment)! Speech Pathology, neither, but all the grants wee for normal-vs-SLI children it seemed. This may make sense from the N.I.H.. Where do I find companies? I want companies; I will program and work and it will be a job, and none more of this academia crap.
I wonder what Jess and Jason (anth major) are thinking of doing?
Oh, and I found Pustejovsky's grant on that page. ... It runs out this August. I didn't know. Reading that, I stated morosing that maybe this is why James never emailed me back despite his making noises of invitation before. Even so, though -- and it's probably not so -- I know this does NOT man it is a good (or even an ok) reason for me to not re-email him and ask again. Maybe he lost it/mis-deleted and forgot that I'd emailed him the other month. And even if he can't hire me, he can still give me ideas of who else could. That was what I made a point of asking him for in the email I sent. I suspect that he would know something useful about the Boston-area commercial linguistics possibilities at last! Ha! So writing Pustejovsky is good. I must do it. I know.
What I am so afraid of is being judged.
